I want to always rmb that Christ is a happy master, a loving Lord.
Recently, I came upon John Bunyan’s Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinners, where he described his struggle with religious OCD. Prior to this, I never knew any Christian author, or pastor who experienced this, nor did I know any Christian friend experiencing this. So Grace Abounding has provided me much relief, though I wouldn’t wish he went through that pain.
Also, I started reading the book, Strivings Within – The OCD Christian. I’m really grateful for Mitzi’s honesty to share, and her humble and Christ-dependent heart. I was comforted to learn that anxiety is an affliction, rather than something I caused myself to be experiencing. I used to think, “why can’t I snap out of it???”. I know that I bear the responsibility to direct my thoughts to what’s true and helpful, but after going through these involuntary thoughts and body sensations, I recognise that it is an illness and therefore a valid condition. If we need the doctor to heal us of things like allergic reactions, then surely there is a real medical need to address these persistent body reactions. Now that I understand my condition better, I hope I can slowly help others see the need to be gentle with people who suffer from anxiety disorders.
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